The time with my friend L. was really, really fun…like, I might have to get Skype working fun.
The stories of living in the exotic north were really neat. A lot of my friends are or have been far-flung (diplomat, moved to Geneva, currently sabbatical-ing in London). We all thought that would be me, ha. But I soak it up, listening.
Mostly though I a) like her and b) so do Lyr, JJ, Channah, and even Lynn, so it was kind of a love-fest. L. is one of the most direct people I know; if she hates your hair or finds your kids whiny, she will probably tell you…but she will also tell you what (in her opinion) you are doing right. She also is ten times harder on herself, which takes a while to figure out.
It was really good to see -her-, full stop, and hear her highs and lows and hug and have wine and everything. She and Noah got along great too.
On top of that…
I have been extra-happy all day, beyond the usual friend-happy, and I think I have sorted out why, a little. Part of the arguing between me and Sass, particularly I think the parts I didn’t know until she left and suddenly made her opinions clear, was related to the idea that I don’t tolerate other opinions well. It’s hard for me to know. In my head, I do. But how it comes across…
But hooking up with L., who is kind of extreme that way in her own views, and who was living with us around the same time, vaguely, reminded me that no…the two of us clashed very often, and I still liked and loved her (as a friend) and she knew and knows it…and that was normal, in some ways. Not the conflict, so much, meaning she is probably even more passionate than I am and harder-nosed about her opinions and that makes some discussion more likely. But just…that was the norm, among that group of friends, and no one was mad at me or thought I was a domineering abusive wench or that I was plotting evil.
And L. knows when she is talking to me; having played PernMUSH with me and having been one of the people who started saying at parties “Hey, it seems like you brought Shandra along tonight” it is not that I was in the background.
I realize this may seem repetitive. Or silly. But I did care about Sass and Lohr’s opinions for years, deeply, and I am still sorting that out some. Because L. and I have mostly communicated online for the last few years, seeing her in person suddenly brought all that history back in a rush.