Noah’s Free Will Horoscope: Leo (July 23-August 22)
We all tend to project onto other people the unattractive aspects of ourselves that we refuse to acknowledge. We’re also drawn to anyone who expresses the fully activated versions of our own sleeping potentials. Everywhere we go, then, our vision is clouded by the disowned psychic material that is floating around our unconscious minds. That’s the bad news, Leo. The good news is that in the next eight weeks you will have an enhanced ability to get access to the liabilities and powers that are buried beneath the surface of your awareness. As a result, your ability to see the objective truth about the world around you should grow dramatically.
Monday night Noah slept all night through, in our bed (by his choice). Ah blissful slumber.
Last night he went to bed in his bed (his choice). Around midnight he woke up asking to come into the big bed. I said sure. Then he threw himself down on the floor between the two beds (in the hallway) and sobbed for 20 minutes, alternating requests for beds. I said, occasionally, that he could go to whichever bed when he was ready. I also told him it’s hard to want two opposite things. And that he could have a hug whenever he wanted.
Eventually he appeared in the big bed, and slept pretty much through to the alarm this morning.
The only thing I can say is good about this phase is that I have managed to let go of it, in that I am just letting it happen. As much as possible my strategy is to take myself out of the equation and let him struggle with it (with me nearby for support, but so that the cup of milk, or whatever, is where he can decide whether to take it or not).
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This morning I had a total (and embarassing) freakout. I checked out the new City of Toronto daycare rating website, and I thought our daycare had rated a “2″ which would be “borderline ready to shut it down.” I emailed the directress to ask about it, and I set up tours of two other daycares, and was checking out more ratings when I realized… my daycare was not actually rated. I was looking at the MAP NUMBER. Oops. I had to email again really quickly.
I am wondering, though, if this was a spike of intuition. It’s not that I don’t like Noah’s daycare; I do, very much, and he seems very happy there. Except that they have a new volunteer parent that I don’t like, for no good reason, which sometimes means a really good reason. I think likely my spike was more guilt than insight, but I’m going to muse on it for a few days.
ETA: I snuck up on the daycare and things were just fine – happy children, singing, activities. I think it was just fear.
Snuggly Girl is also a Leo and she just got her first pair of glasses, so I think that accounts for her currently increased awareness of the world around her. :-)
And you are very wise to see that wanting two opposite things at once is hard. That covers a lot of ground, that insight. Wishing you much patience until Noah gets past this sticking point he’s in.
Just spotted your update — I was going to suggest some more spying, so I’m glad you already did and feel reassured. Keep spying, if you feel like it.