The no-update health; stuff
Health update: I had the MRI, and no one rushed in and said OH MY GOD and wheeled me off, so that’s good.
Results are not back to my doctor yet. Sadly having to lie on my back and be still made me all tense, and then the next day I tripped and then lifted various things later (bags, toddler, books) and now my back is having one of its semi-annual attacks.
On the plus side I feel a little bit better, but it’s hard to tell if it’s ’cause I’ve adjusted to going to bed early and not doing anything unnecessary in my life, like have fun. Okay that’s grumpy but I am feeling a little grumpy. However, the plus side: marginally better.
Work is good but I am anxious all the time that I am Not Enough - not detailed enough, not dedicated enough, not focused enough. Experience suggests that this feeling will mostly fade in about another nine months. But I do wonder if there’s a biochemical component to the anxiety. I’m not usually THIS neurotic.
The general tenor in media is pretty somber though; the economic downturn hits our bottom lines very, very quickly as advertising budgets get slashed. It’s hard to say where I fit into something like that: my corner is ok, but I might get dragged out of it. I’m in the enviable two-income position of course, but middle class is precious to me and I would like to keep my job. Being on the web site is the growth side, but there are several editors more senior than I and one could consolidate resources.
Normally my response to that is work harder, but there’s a funeral in Ottawa this weekend and Noah’s school was off today, so I took today off and we’re going to Ottawa this weekend (leaving tomorrow). So today I’m not working. I’m doing the chores I can do without killing my back, and hanging out with Noah.
We have grand plans to make gingerbread cookies this afternoon because it snowed on Tues, albeit briefly, and in some moment of pressure I had said that we would make gingerbread cookies when it snows, sometime a month ago. So when I picked Noah up at school Tuesday he was dead certain that we were about to make cookies Right Then. He also reminded me that we don’t eat snow from the ground, only from the sky, which was last year’s rule. Am I raising child, or elephant?
At least we can take cookies to the bereaved. I am not making angel ones for that though. Stars will do.
Although the occasion for our trip is a sad one, in a strange way Carl and I both are looking forward to it. We forewent the usual summer trip this summer and although it was a good decision for sanity, we did miss the break. Rather than bunking with relations we are planning to pay for a hotel room - it means Carl doesn’t have to feel rotten for working through the night, and if Noah’s cranky we can deal in private, and there will be a pool, and with luck, a jacuzzi tub. We’ll probably hit the Museum of Civilization which has a fabulous kids’ area.
Not sure how the drive will be for my back, but the Elantra actually has really comfy seats, so that’s a bonus.
Onwards!
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I’m glad the MRI is done and there was no immediate emergency.
Staying in a hotel is The Best.
I’ve been thinking about magazines and advertising a lot. Makes sense to me that it would be the front line in this collapse. I hope the stress isn’t too awful.
Safe travels.