Down the road
I know, it’s been quiet lately. I feel quiet. But it’s not quite as evilly quiet as before. So in no particular order:
My sister went off the massive drugs she had been on, and was allowed to shower. A few hours later, she went into labour. After a rather exciting c-section she welcomed my niece into the world at a good healthy weight. In other words, she and medical science did great. I am so pleased for them I cannot say and my niece is gorgeous. I know, because I went to Dallas/Fort Worth and hung out with her for a week. My sister is now having to recover and it will be a long haul.
I do miss Emily, but I find that the two emotions are quite separate. I am truly glad for my sister and it doesn’t really make me any angrier than usual about Emily.
That stress coming off helped. I am only the sister, but it was really really bothering me.
Noah and Carl did fine while I was away. I knew they would, but it was still good. I missed them both terribly. That Noah can really talk on the phone now helped.
Lyria was in raptures taking care of a newborn.
Noah is hillarious right now. He’s just so - almost-4. He is full of theories.
Work is up and down. I am increasing my attempts to be Zen but I am not sure what I think about having such a love/hate relationship. When I love, I love it. But when I hate I want to slit my wrists. It’s odd. If it does not level out, I will worry.
I have made an attempt to be more present and also to leave room for others to be more present and that has helped some. (Good call J.) But it’s still a struggle to find the joys that were coming easily earlier.
I’ve upped my vitamin consumption, esp. B12 and that seems to be helping too.
We’re planning a pirate party. Arrrrgh!