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Definition: Switching

Switching is what I (Teresa) experience when there's a lot of loss of executive control. Sometimes it starts as a total change in mood - the exact same thing I was finding fun a minute before, like being tickled, is suddenly horrible. Then sometimes I get a peculiar kind of headache, or I start to feel numb all over. Sometimes then I experience a time jump, where it seems like I was zapped into the future. Or sometimes I feel like I'm watching things down a long tube, or in a dream. Those things are what other people are still thinking is my life happening. But to me it's someone else doing it.

This is very hard to explain online. It's even harder to explain when someone's just been arguing with you and you're "acting" like it didn't happen, or at least it didn't happen to you.