Warrior Chicks
Wow, there's so much to say here. And so little space. :)
So, I'm Shandra. I'm the leader of the warrior caste, and I guess I speak for all the warriors - right now anyway. Up until the last year I wasn't aware of being a leader, but I suppose I have had a sense that there were people depending on me. Sometimes I found myself saying "well people need..." "well people expect..." - and then finally I found the people. Heh.
I'm working mostly these days on rounding out myself as a human being. I will never be silent (I'm a mouthy bitch a lot), able to handle injustice really well, or compromise my standards such as they are. And I'm not really sorry about that. But also as some of the essays below from early 2001 show, there's a lot to learn.
When I first came back from the dead and saw that my life is not entirely mine it was tough to take. It's a hard thing to learn that your own life isn't just yours. I wanted to be a great lawyer, or a political journalist, and change the world in a large and sweeping way. But I seem to have this whole cast of characters to drag along for the ride and a lot of them would be miserable doing that. I went through a lot of anger around my inability to get rid of them.
Gradually though I have come to learn that true change starts within. And so I'm learning that you don't have to expose all the creeps in the world to change it a bit. And also I'm learning that a lot of change starts with not trying to control everything in my life. I get to watch Lyria grow herbs (personally I would let them all die because I never remember to water things) and read Teresa's prose and Lynn's poetry. And although that doesn't make me hardest, stronger, faster, or put me in charge of the world, it leads me to grow and experience what may be hardest thing of all: the beauty of difference and the peace that is so unnatural to me of being glad for what already is.
Basic stats are (in case you didn't check out Teresa's page): I think I'm 31, but sometimes I feel more like 24. However I think that's a "normal" feeling and not that I have a different age than the body. 5'8.5" and about 170 lbs, although it varies. Energetic and loves to dance. Married, in case this was sounding like a personals ad... snicker.
Shandra
Essays from early 2001 (you will have to use your back button to get back:)):
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